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Lead me on

Photo used by permission of TouTouke (Agnes Scholiers)
Photo by TouTouke (Agnes Scholiers)

I think that for the most part, I am a ‘half-glass-full’ kind of person.  Or as I like to call it – a “HOPE-filled” person.

I truly want my life to reflect the Light of HOPE that guides me, comforts me, inspires me.  I want the HOPE found in the promises of God to be the anchor for my soul [my mind, my will, my emotion].

But sometimes   …maybe for a few minutes, or maybe for several days… a feeling that is not hope-filled overcomes me.  David describes it as ‘downcast’-ness.

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?  ~Psalm 42:5

I call these days my ‘wobbly’ days, for instead of being steadfast in my faith [firmly fixed, immovable], on these days I am ‘unfixed’, ‘movable’, and in some cases on the verge of ‘completely toppling over altogether’.   Clearly, on ‘wobbly’ days my focus is less on the Promise(s) and more on the present circumstances.

Do not let your hearts be troubled (distressed, agitated). You believe in and adhere to and trust in and rely on God; believe in and adhere to and trust in and rely also on Me.  ~John 14:1 (Amplified)

One of my daughters recently shared the song “Steady Heart” by Steffany Gretzinger (of Bethel Music) with me.  It has completely captured my thinking, or more specifically – the image inspired by the chorus has captured my imagination, and speaks deeply to my soul and spirit.

Steady heart that keeps on going, Steady love that keeps on holding
Lead me on
Steady grace that keeps forgiving,  Steady faith that keeps believing
Lead me on

~”Steady Heart”, by Steffany Gretzinger (chorus only)

To my hearing, the singer is speaking to Someone, who is intimately referred to as;  1) Steady Heart, 2) Steady Love, 3) Steady Grace, and 4) Steady Faith.    And in those four Names, I am reminded that steadfastness of faith (that continued HOPE-filled pressing-in and pressing-on towards full possession of the Promises of God) is not experienced by of lack of trials, but is the result of maintaining a fixed focus on the One who goes before us, Jesus Christ.  He is the Good Shepherd, and if we will simply focus our attention on listening, and following, and obeying His instructions, He will safely lead us through the storm and back into open spaces of peace and rest.

Why are you cast down, O my soul,
    and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
    my salvation and my God.  ~Psalm 42:11

Leaping or Deeping, it’s all a test of faith!

Here’s the thing about taking ‘a leap of faith’.   In order for it to qualify as a ‘leap’, there has to be a period of time that you are in a free-fall of some sort or another.  That exciting, but often very unnerving span of time between when you left Point A, but haven’t quite reached Point B.   That is, assuming you even know where Point B is!

Well, like I shared a few months ago, I recently felt called to take a leap of faith; but in my case it felt less like ‘leaping’ and more like ‘deeping’ (sorry – I couldn’t resist the urge to rhyme!).

Have you ever felt like that?  Felt the prompting to leave what was known and comfortable, and instead take a leap?   Or heard the Lord inviting you to step off the shorelines of safety trust in Him to elevate you over the depths of the unknown?

And if you have, how did you respond?

Did you leap?  Did you deep?   Are you still deciding how to respond?

Water Walking
Water Walking

So much has happened since I wrote the post Water Walking.  I am still very much “in the deep of faith” stage of things, but I take great comfort in knowing that I am not alone in the deep, and neither are you!  Let me say that again … YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

The Lord said to Abram, “Leave your country, your relatives, and your father’s home, and go to a land that I am going to show you. I will give you many descendants, and they will become a great nation. I will bless you and make your name famous, so that you will be a blessing.

Just because we don’t yet see the full manifestation of what we are praying for, we can press on during the ‘water walking’ stage of the journey with confident expectation  – knowing that He who called us out into the deep waters of faith will be as faithful to us as He was to Abraham God will not leave His promise unfulfilled!!

May that truth be as comforting to you as it is to me, and may we both soon make it to the other side of the waters and into our very own ‘promised lands’.

Blessings,
Jenny

Water Walking

In a previous post, I spoke of having a recurring stream of thoughts, ideas, and scriptures for the last several months.    It’s been rather like something is trying to be birthed within me … but how does one go about giving birth to something when you don’t yet know what it is?  As I opened my heart to new possibilities, I also opened my Bible and began to look for instructions in His Word.  After all, if God is truly leading me down a certain path, that path will be in agreement with His Word.

I am still in the process of seeking out those answers in full, opening my heart and my ears to receive instruction for the birthing of this new thing, this new season.   As I do, I discover that I am most surely being led out into the deeper waters of faith.  And eventually the time for investigating, praying, and consulting culminates with a decision.

Recently, the song “Oceans” by Hillsong UNITED has taken on a whole new meaning for me, especially the first two lines.  We’ve been singing it at church for many months, but it was during a women’s event a few weeks back that the lyrics really clicked in my heart.  I felt that I was most clearly being invited to step out onto the waters.

I’ve always considered myself a bit of a risk taker, but lets face it – the bigger the risk, the harder it is to take that first step.  Especially if that first step is off the dry land and onto the wet!

And as we worshipped to this song, the Lord began to speak to my heart in images – something He often does (images which are frequently inspiration for my watercolors).  And this is what the conversation He and I had during worship that night sounded like.

Water Walking
Water Walking

 

LORD:  “Daughter, you are a delight to my heart and I am thrilled that you are putting your foot out over the waters for that bold first step.  But if all you do is hover your foot over the waters, you will never reach the destination I’m calling you to.  No, my daughter, you must actually put your full weight on that foot and begin to move forward, or you will remain at the shoreline.”

Me:  “But we both know I can’t walk on water, Lord.”

LORD:  “Look down, and tell me what you see beneath your feet?”

Me:  “Dry sand, that eventually gives way to wet sand, that eventually gives way to water above the sand.”

LORD:  “Give thought to that very fragile line of delineation, the very point of transition when the water ceases to be below the sand, or even equal to the sand, but is now above the sand.   The water is only a few centimeters deep, but the water is above the sand line, correct?”

Me:  “Yes, Lord.”

LORD:  “Can you walk on water, daughter?”

Me:  “No, Lord.” 

LORD:  “And yet, if I stood directly in front of you, and called you forward from dry land to stand upon even as little as 1 centimeter of water, would you believe me for it and take that first step?”

Me:  “I believe I would Lord – I would respond to Your invitation.”

LORD:  “Daughter, if you were able to walk on top of even as little as 1 centimeter of water, the limitations of your mind and body would not even be able to register or perceive such an infinitesimal elevation.   You have the faith to trust me for 1 centimeter of water-walking power, but what I want you to remember is that once you are walking on the water, the depth of the water is irrelevant.  I’m asking you to take the first step from dry to wet.  Do that, and leave the ocean to me.”

On my own, I know without a doubt that I am completely incapable of walking on water, regardless how shallow the water is.  But in Him, I know that all things are possible … even walking on water (a symbol of walking in His empowerment over the circumstances of my life).   And so are you!

In the weeks since that dialog, I’ve taken the first step forward out onto the waters, and then another after that.  And this morning, as I pondered again the insanity of this journey, the Lord reminded me of other times when I’ve dared to trust Him and “water walk”.  I first read the following scripture some 20+ years ago when I dared to “water walk” by leaving an abusive marriage.  There were some mighty big waves in that ocean, let me tell you … but here I am, safely resettled on the other side!

I will bring the blind by a way they do not know; I will lead them in paths they have not known.  I will make darkness light before them, and crooked places straight.  These things I will do for them, and not forsake them.   (Isaiah 42:16)

There have been many other “water walking” occasions since and in all of them, true to His word, He led through ways I did not know and has made dark places light before me, and crooked places straight.  He has not forsaken.

And He still leads!

I would love to hear your thoughts and read about your stories (from either side of the ‘water walking’ adventure).  Please take a moment to post a comment below.

Blessings,

Jenny

Dining With Jesus

It’s a quiet morning at my house, and I’m grateful for this time of reflection after a very busy few weeks.    With worship music playing in the background, my Bible beside me, and a cup of coffee at the ready, I simply want to share the gratitude that is in my heart this morning – this Resurrection Sunday morning.

A few years back, my family started celebrating Good Friday with a Christian Seder dinner.  True, we are not Jewish, but it has become such a precious time for our family.  An occasion to pause and recall the bondage from which we have been ransomed out of, to worship our God for His faithfulness, and to renew our faith in Him for victory over the circumstances of life.

It is good to praise you, Lord, to sing praises to God Most High.
It is good to tell of your love in the morning and of your loyalty at night.
It is good to praise you with the ten-stringed lyre and with the soft-sounding harp.
Lord, you have made me happy by what you have done; I will sing for joy about what your hands have done.  (Psalm 92:1-4)

This year, all three of my granddaughters sat at the table with us – but as you can imagine with three little ones (ages 4 months to almost 4 years), there were lots of interruptions.  It was awesome!  My heart was just so full watching my daughters and sons-in-love tend to their little girls, allowing them to participate as they are able.

And isn’t that just like what our Father God does with us?  He invites us to His table, and allows us to participate as we are able.  He always meets us where we are!

He meets us where we are, but because of His great love, He doesn’t leave us there!    No.  Just like my granddaughters will, over time, learn by the loving instruction of their parents (and Nana) to increasingly participate in our Seder celebration, so does our God continue to invite us into greater and greater knowledge of Him and all the Blood of Jesus secured for us.

And you, being dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all your trespasses, having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us.  And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.  Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it.  (Colossians 2:13-15)

Have you ever tried to feed a fussy baby something you know they will enjoy if they will just trust you enough to take the first taste?  I think that is sometimes how Jesus must feel with us.  He has set before us at the banquet table every good thing, including things we desperately need and want.  But so many times we’re too fussy to partake!

This morning, I pause to reflect on what the Blood of Jesus purchased for me.   Because of Jesus, I now have a seat at the banquet table, a table that has been set with everything I need to live victoriously on this earth.  And its all been paid for!  

I’m hungry Lord!  I need a hearty serving of everything you set out for me at the banquet table!!  I need freedom!  I need healing!  I need joy, and peace, and provision!   In short … I need everything that your Word promises is mine as a daughter of the Living God!

I don’t know about you, but I sure am glad that Jesus isn’t stingy with the serving sizes … and He never says no when you ask for more!!  In fact, it is His greatest joy to give (and give again) out of the abundance of His great love!

In 2014, my family and I shall eat heartily of all that the Blood of Jesus has paid for.  How about you?

Blessings,

Jenny

 

Psalm 92
Psalm 92

 

Receiving Instruction (part 3)

In my last post, I spoke of being ‘thumped’ and asked the questions:  What has God called you to do that requires more of you?  What are you facing that requires the very best that you have? 

As followers of Christ we are called put on the Armor of God and stand against the powers of darkness.  I have written about this to some extent in previous posts, and will come back to it again another time. But not every challenge encountered is a demonic attack.

Sometimes, we are tried (tested) simply by encountering other peoples stuff or other natural circumstances of a fallen world.   I believe this is the enemy’s A#1 go-to plan to come against those who bear the Name of Christ.  To put circumstances around us that test our character and test our beliefs – hoping we will take offense at the test and walk away from the very One who has given us the victory (through Him) in all things.

And sometimes, what we are experiencing is the consequence (delayed or immediate) of our own choices, words, and actions.  It is easy to point to outside circumstances for our pain and suffering, but it requires humility before God and a teachable spirit to allow Him to poke at and point at the areas in our life that need to be addressed for our greater good.  In the same way that a loving parent will teach independence to an infant by allowing them to stand  and fall over and over again until they develop – through testing – the balance, coordination and strength required to walk and eventually run on their own, our loving God allows us to undergo periods of testing in order to help us identify and confront the beliefs, circumstances, and behaviors that are holding us back from His best for us and poorly represent His character and His name.

Let me tell you why you are here. You’re here to be salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You’ve lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage.  Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.  (Matthew 5:13-16 MSG)

Lord, give us wisdom to recognize an attack from a trial, and show us through your Word the proper response for the challenges we may encounter in our lives.  When under attack, may we be quick to respond with boldness under the authority You bestowed upon us as Your ambassadors on this earth.

And when I’m ‘thumped’ by trials, may I recognize them as opportunities to be developed, strengthened, and even pruned/corrected.  As opportunities to be ‘proven’ as authentic and of quality, reliable and durable.

Who will I be when I’m winning?
Who will I be when I’m loosing?
Who will I be when stuck between a rock and another rock?

Will I choose to act in a way that is unbecoming to someone who bears the name of ‘Christ follower’?  

WilI I choose to stand boldly and confidently on the Word of God, fully relying on Him to bring this to a conclusion that is both for my good and His glory?

So what about all those challenges I have been journaling about for months and in some cases even years?   Well, I would like to end this post by declaring who I am and what I have!

I have the Wisdom of Christ residing in me (Proverbs 2:1-6, 1 Corinthians 1:30-31), and am quick to implement the corrections that God asks of me, because I am a doer of the Word and not just a hearer (Proverbs 15:33, Colossians 1:9-14).  That I take as my very own every benefit promised me as a joint-heir with Christ, knowing that nothing is impossible with God and no Word from God is without power or impossible of fulfillment (Isaiah 55:11, Luke 1:37, Romans 4:16).  That I am now experiencing victory in managing all my attitudes and behaviors, and that I am more than a conqueror over every evil scheme of the enemy. (2Timothy 1:12, Philippians 1:6-11, 1 John 4:17)

Yup, that’s me  – speaking of things that ‘be not’ … as though they are, until they are!

Be blessed,
Jenny

From my journal
From my journal